Pleasantly strange.

Something was bothering me really bad from last 3-4 days and today it was at peak. I wanted few things to happen but its just taking time and it feels I am waiting like forever. I was getting all restless. And of course I don't really share things with my family till they are out of my control. And I don't think I'll be able to sleep tonight.

As usual I get a call from my parents and same talk continues asking if everything is fine and I had dinner and all. We are about to end our conversation and suddenly my mother out of no where just tells me - "Somethings will happen only at right time. You really don't have to bother." And the phone call ends there.

Its not like I didn't know this, but may be right now I needed this and here she was. I felt as if God spoke through her tongue.

How strange is that ?
She didn't know anything of it and just gave a perfect solution.

A peaceful sleep...

कौतुक कर ना जरा

मागच्या दिवाळी च्या सुट्टीत घरी जाता आलं नाही, हॉस्टेल मधेच थांबावं लागलं कारण प्रोजेक्ट्स करायचे होते . पण काहीच मना सारखं होत नव्हतं. खूप depressed feel होत होतं, वाटायचं आपल्याने काहीच होऊ शकणार नाही. मग डिनर साठी मेस मध्ये गेले, बघते तर काय ? ती साधारण जेवण देणारी लोकं ज्यांची financial condition काही खूप छान नाहीच आहे तरीही ती लोकं किती खुश होती. त्या क्षणी वाटलं आपल्या कडे जे आहे ते त्यांच्या कळे नसून हि ती जर खुश राहू शकतात तर मी काय म्हणून दुखी आहे ?

प्रॉब्लेम काय आहे ना, आपल्या कळे जी गोष्ट असते त्याचं आपल्याला काहीच वाटत नाही आणि इथेच चूक होते. कुठे धावतोय आपण आणि कशाला ?

तुम्हाला माहिती आहे का ? जगात प्रत्येक गोष्टी चं कौतुक होऊ शकतं. अगदी तुंहाला जी गोष्ट frustrate करते तिचं सुद्धा. पण आपण ज्या जागी आता उभे आहोत, त्या गोष्टीचं कौतुक आपण कधी करतो का ?

त्याला विचारा कौतुक ज्याचं स्वप्न आहे तुम्ही जिथे उभे आहात तिथे पोहचणं आणि तुमचं काय तर म्हणे मला अजून कुठेच तरी जायचंय. अरे हो जा कि, पहा ना स्वप्न अगदी आकाशाला स्पर्श करणारी, पण जरा वेळ थांबा आणि पहा अवती-भवती , हे पण तितकच सुंदर आणि अविश्वसनीय आहे :)

जर तुम्ही कृतज्ञ नसाल तर कधीच समाधानी होऊ शकणार नाही. काय ?

Flirting is good for health

Lovelyyyyy.
Being Befikre | Carefree is excitement.

I am always ready to do whatever my mind thinks at this moment will give that adrenaline rush just for fun. The video just gives perfect display.

I keep on doing something or anything you can call Befikre.
I'll share one of those.

So, I was in Pune. And just in 2 days I located this guy, who looks stunning in those formals and has an amazing personality. I used to keep looking at him, whenever he used to pass. Ya, he was my next crush. But I am not someone who'll just be happy looking at someone, I make sure my crush knows that he is MY crush. Let's call him A.

So, ya through some friend I conveyed that to him indirectly and guess what, it turns out he is extremely shy of girls. I could see, he used to blush if I am looking at him but never made eye contact. By now the whole office knew that I am having crush on him.
But I havn't flirted with him till now. Sad! But it was difficult as he is really shy.

So, one day after office hours, when I was leaving he was still there with all his guy friends standing at far end from the main door. And I went upto the lift, I suddenly had this urge of doing something (:P)  and I turned back opened the office's door and in front of whole office I shouted his name and said "Byeeee A".
Everybody in the office was either blushing or laughing and A was just shocked as in what to react and said nothing :P
Instead all his friends said - "Byeee Rachanaaa."
Oh God! That was fun.

Till date everyone remembers that.
Trust me there are many of these and they'll never stop.

Its 0 or 1 for me

My emotions, thinkings, decisions have always been either zero or one and I completely follow the zero or one mantra. Either I am totally into something or I am totally detached, there is nothing in between.
The space between zero and one is not in my book, simple reason being its a very complicated place to be in. And I avoid complications as much as possible. Because those complications don't take you anywhere and you are just stuck and I really can't give any time or energy to get involved in them.
This sums to no energy at zero and total energy from 0.1 to 1 to go directly to 1 as a whole and that's how you give your best shot at 1.

Either you have an important space in my life which I'll make sure you know with my actions or you are just no one to me. There is nothing in between.
Either I want something really badly or I just don't want it. There is nothing like maybe or lets see.
Even my anger, that's why I say - "I rarely get angry." Very few people have seen my anger and their reaction tells me they don't want to see it again :P

This has also sometimes got me into trouble as I might think that something as being 1 but is actually less than 1, say 0.9, and then it hurts because you gave your best shot at 0.9 rather than at 1.
But I am equally good at throwing such things with 0.9 to 0.
Let it be situations, people, performance, or just everything.

Touched

Ellen DeGeneres is my LOVE (Yes in capital letters)She is on mission of making people happy, give amazing surprises, make them feel special, help them in their bad times from last 13 years, every single day.

She creates those positive, happy and heavenly vibes - exactly the way I wish this world to be. Exactly the way I want to give people happiness.

My most happy moment of the day is watching the The Ellen Show.

Apart from this, she is really funny. She makes me smile and laugh. Its common psychology after few months or may be couple of years, any form of comedy if gets repeated which naturally happens if a same person is doing it with a same format, kind of bores the audience.
But here is Ellen, this logic just don't apply to her.
Last 13 years, still the same energy, still that adorable presentation and the love!


                  

Something on the Ellen show touched me deep.
In my head, I think I am a selfless person. But today I felt so small in front of this lady and today the definition of selflessness changed for me for life.

The joy of seeing anyone happy and relieved because of you is the greatest.

Somewhere the world is so beautiful and that makes my little world beautiful :) 

A letter to 16 year old me.

Hii Rachana, hope you are doing well. There are somethings I wish I could have told you. But never the less they are your lessons now.

I wish I could have told you - 

1. Don't take life too seriously, its a game with ups and downs. Don't worry too much about the destination, sometimes things are just not in your hand. Only thing you can do is enjoy the beautiful journey.

2. Life is not - "Zindagi ka safar hai ye kaisa safar, koi samjha nahi, koi jana nahi."
Rather it is - "Ude khule aasma me khwabo ke parinde."

3. Don't take tension about really simple things. There is lot more than this in future. Atleast enjoy now.

4. Trust me. Every bloody thing happens for something good. So chill!

5. Being in your teenage obviously you feel your parents are born to hurt you. You'll laugh at this after few years as you'll know they are the best gift.

6. Spend some quality time with your family. You are going to miss that a lot in future.

7. Those tears are priceless, don't shed them on unworthy situations.

8. Try to speak more otherwise your voice will disappear. Vestigiality you see.

9. Don't fall in love, ever in your life. Its just difficult and screws you mentally. You are not meant for all that bullshit.

10. Don't invest in people. Big NO. Be it time, emotions, whatever. Again we don't need that bullshit.

11. I know, you very badly wanted to be a Guy, but guess what God has made you a girl. Try a bit to behave like a girl. I mean thoda sa delicate and all. What ? No ? Ok fine, forget it. I love you the way you are.

12. Health man health. Please take care of your health man. You are very irresponsible as far your health is concerned. You make your body suffer a lot. That's lot of atyachar. Not good.

13. Don't ever think of ending your life. Just STUPID! 

14. Dream the impossible and make it happen. Sacrifice whatever comes in between as my only wish is to see that one beautiful day.

15. Don't try to keep everyone happy. You'll end up hurting yourself. You are not God man. Let God do his job and you do yours.

16. Let people go. If they come back, they are all yours, if not, they were never yours. And that should be perfectly fine.

Otherwise you are perfect. 20 year old Rachana feels proud of you and loves you a lot.

Dear 16 year old, do you want to know how your 20 year old looks ?
More confident, risk taker, fearless, very expressive, stronger than ever, looks cute nowadays, takes stand, damn focused, doesn't give a damn what others are thinking, believes in the power of the Universe, got some good friends and few stalkers too, happily single with lots of crushes.

What has not changed ?

Still never complains, still tries to make people happy, still always ready to help and still in love with you.

This is strength.

She defines the strength a woman has.
Hats off O P Jaisha.


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